I had another dream about her.
I was walking down a path with her. The details of my dreams are hazy. But there is no question who it was.
“You have really luminous skin!” I said, as I stroked her cheek. She has quite pale skin, is what I meant. But beautiful, pale skin. For some reason, my brain decided to use the word luminous.
“So do you!” she replied smiling. I also have pale skin.
That was it. At least, as much as I can remember.
I haven’t seen her for months, and I doubt if I ever will see her again. I guess my brain just likes to taunt me with these fantasies occasionally. The problem is, if you dwell on your dreams you can lose touch with reality.
I planned with my friends to go out clubbing tomorrow. Due to a few different factors, that is no longer happening. I’ve been looking forward to going out for 2 weeks. Sometimes I feel so isolated from everything. Even more so now.
Sometimes I wish I could just fall asleep and live in a fantasy world.
That is a very dangerous wish.